Baby Hungry....Kind Of

Almost always when I think that maybe I could have a 3rd child, reality slaps me in the face! How can I even think of having another one when I can barely handle the two I have now? No seriously! I'm the crazy mom who people judge in the grocery store because my kids are screaming at check out. We all know "that" crazy mom. I am that mom. Sad! It's exhausting! 

Third child of mine, blame your older siblings for your late debut. Lol! Who knows when you'll ever get here but I always wonder what it would be like. On good days I tell myself maybe next year and then on horrible days I say to wait at least 5 years. Lol!

But seriously, I love seeing little newborn babies at church. Maybe I should babysit one so I can get a real dose of what it would feel like to be a mom of 3. Lol! 

Take Me Home

I'm sitting here in sacrament meeting and  all I can think about is what I forgot to do this morning aka shave my legs and wax my stache! It wouldn't be so bad if I I hadn't waited a month to do either. Lol!! It really is thaaaat bad guys! I noticed both on the way here to church and jokingly told Vili to take me back home. I should have persisted because now I can't focus on anything else. Lol! 

Update: I waxed the stache today. Next up, shaving these legs. Lol! 

Take Me Home

I'm sitting here in sacrament meeting and and all I can think about is what I forgot to do this morning aka shave my legs and wax my stache! It wouldn't be so bad if I I hadn't waited a month to do either. Lol!! It really is thaaaat bad guys! I noticed both on the way here to church an jokingly told Vili to take me back home. I should have persisted because now I can't focus on anything else. Lol! 

Baby Steps

I hope I don't jinx myself from posting this but we might almost be a binky free household! It has not been easy and it's not over yet but we are so close! 

Talanoa is down to only using her binky at bedtime which is a huge improvement. Anyone who knows Talanoa knows that once she makes up her mind about something she's sticking with it so its been real tough because she's so attached. So are we to be honest. Lol! 

She did the most awesome thing yesterday and I'm so proud of her. I handed her her binky while I was getting her dressed for the day and she threw it down and said, "No binky! Only for nite-nite".  I could've cried I was so excited! Lol. I wish someone would've been recording because my jaw was down to my knees with surprise! That's the line we usually tell her before she has a full on meltdown.  Sometimes she would even snatch it out of our hands and run away and dive straight into fetal position so we couldn't yank it out of her mouth. It's been real fun I tell ya! Lol

Hopefully the next time I post it will be about how they are gone for good! 

My Sweet Elina

Elina, my three year old daughter, bore her testimony today in sacrament meeting all on her own doing and unbeknownst to us until we heard her sweet voice over the microphone. Can I just say that there is nothing sweeter than hearing and seeing  my children embrace the gospel despite my many shortcomings as a Mom?  It makes me think that maybe I am doing something right. 

Elina walked over to Grandma and Papa's bench like she usually does near the end of sacrament meeting where we assumed she was sitting quietly. Next thing I know she is up at the pulpit with her Aunty Talanoa because she asked to go up there. While at the pulpit she mumbled a few inaudible sentences and got too shy to continue but her willingness to even get up there amazes me! I'm too afraid to get up there! Lol. Maybe this can be motivation for me in the future ;) After sacrament I told her she did such a great job up there and she said, "Oh, you're welcome Mommy! I bear my testimony!" I didn't even know she knew the word testimony.  I'm sure she doesn't know what it means but she's making connections and that's all that matters to me. 

Anyhow, I am so grateful for this child of mine who I know is the oldest for a reason. Elina, I love you so much and you are such a sweet reminder of how much our Father in Heaven loves us!  May you continue to strengthen your testimony and willingness to share it with others as the years go on. 

P.S. As soon as Talanoa saw her sister at the pulpit she went up and stood right next to her. Maybe they're ready for some testimony based FHE's! 

Grandma Status at 26!

I just started working on the flex schedule at the doTerra call center. Why another oncall job you ask? Flexibility. I like the option of staying home when I want and I don't like leaving my kids with babysitters for long periods of time. I like my job there so far but would like to eventually get a real job. Lol!

Anyhow, this job makes me feel ancient. Five years of marriage, a Bachelor's degree, and two children seem to really date a person here in College Town, USA. I guess I never really noticed because I'm never around college students these days other than my family members. When I hear people flirting or see people trying to be extra cute it makes me feel really old! I just have to say that I'm glad I am married and out of that scene.  

My Perfectly Imperfect Life

My life is far from perfect.  Here's a glimpse of life in our shoes as of late:

My kids, yes plural, sleep in our bed still. Crib? What's that? Their playpen? Storage since they were born. They don't have any schedules and sometimes sleep at midnight if we let them. I am horrible at disciplining them so they act out in public and I want to die of embarrassment sometimes.  They repeat bad words and phrases kids ears should not hear. 

We are poor. We are on every government program you can think of but are slowly getting kicked off all of them because we are a hair over the income limit which is good and bad for us.  My husband works full time and I work on-call. You'd think that we would make enough to support ourselves but we don't. If we get kicked off of Medicaid my children will not have any health insurance because we can't afford what is offered through my husband's job. 

What else? I'm sure I could go on and on but you get it. My life isn't perfect. No one's life is. We all face different trials in life whether they be marital, educational, spiritual, physical, etc. As imperfect as my life is, I wouldn't trade it for the world, my basket of problems included. 

We taught a lesson in my CTR 10/11 class yesterday that talked about enduring adversity and I learned something. The Lord promises us that all adversity and trials are for our betterment and if we endure them WELL, we will be blessed. I'm working on the "enduring it well" part because I'm a worrier/complainer. Gotta have more faith!